13.05.03

1.昨日話してくれてありがとう。実はね、去年からずっと気になってたよ。でもクラスメイトになったら、ずっと私に冷たくて、無視して、凄く嫌な人だと思った。でも昨日は初めて私に優しくして、嬉しかった。これからもよろしくね。

2. 好きだから嫌い。嫌いだから好き。そういうパターンが多いなと。

3. やることが多すぎると、逃げる。今でも逃げている。

4. I am convinced that we are programmed to go after the same people over and over again. Maybe because they remind us of someone we once loved. Or maybe because we want to fix what we couldn't the previous time. Maybe because we want to be accepted by that original lost love. Or maybe I just think too much.

5. Friends coming to visit in a few weeks. Super excited. Yay!!

6. あなたに会いたくないときもあるよ。私もびっくりした。

7. Even though I don't smoke, I prefer to sit with smokers when I go out to an izakaya. They're always more interesting to talk with.

8. But I'd really rather not see little 18~19 year old girls smoking because they think it looks cool. I prefer the long-time authentic smokers.

9. I find it interesting how the East and the West treat the idea of smoking and drinking very differently. In the west both are seen quite negatively, whereas in the east, they're almost expected of you.

10. I love being an observer. Maybe that's why I dislike big groups usually. Because I can't look in from the outside. So I get quiet, distance myself, and find a way to watch people anyways. Though when I write it all down it just makes me sound creepy.