1. I don't care what other people think, Korean and Japanese sound nothing alike. When you spend over a year in a school that is 80% Korean, you get really used to the way it sounds, and it really sounds extremely different. The people look extremely different too.
2. I'm really good at distinguishing Japanese, Korean, and Chinese phenotypes. Sometimes I can figure out Thai and Filipino too. Maybe it isn't the most useful of skills, but I pride myself on being able to tell people apart just based on face alone, and often from far distances too.
3. The loft in my apartment is like a good 5C or more hotter than the rest of my apartment. Going up there for any more than five or so minutes makes me feel like crap. I'm happy I listened to my old roommate when he told me not to put my futon up there.
4. I hate waiting for people to respond to messages. Please message me back soon? T__T
Sunday, July 28, 2013
13.07.28
1. Officially on summer holiday as of 3 pm today so Im gonna stay up and shit like it's nobody's business tonight!
2. Actually, I lie. There was a bug sighting in my apartment, causing me to flee and seek help from others. I hope the little bastard finds a way out of my place on his own. Or decides to eat the trap shit I left out for him. Just no babies or friends, please?
3. No but bugs are yucky and scary and anywhere but my apartment, please?
4. Last year with the cockroach incident I made an international call to my parents. This year with the first bug (hopefully only bug?), I call up my old roommate. Both phone calls involve me freaking out and the other person laughing at me, and good memories down the line. But right now, someone just come and live with me and kill bugs in the summer, yes?
5. L and I have become friends of sorts and this is the coolest thing in the world right now. I lie, maybe not coolest, but still pretty cool. Though it would have been great had he come for pancakes with us like he said he would.
2. Actually, I lie. There was a bug sighting in my apartment, causing me to flee and seek help from others. I hope the little bastard finds a way out of my place on his own. Or decides to eat the trap shit I left out for him. Just no babies or friends, please?
3. No but bugs are yucky and scary and anywhere but my apartment, please?
4. Last year with the cockroach incident I made an international call to my parents. This year with the first bug (hopefully only bug?), I call up my old roommate. Both phone calls involve me freaking out and the other person laughing at me, and good memories down the line. But right now, someone just come and live with me and kill bugs in the summer, yes?
5. L and I have become friends of sorts and this is the coolest thing in the world right now. I lie, maybe not coolest, but still pretty cool. Though it would have been great had he come for pancakes with us like he said he would.
Friday, July 26, 2013
13.07.26
1. Being in your mid-twenties makes it so that it's not altogether strange that the last guy you liked is almost twice as old as the current guy you like.
2. There are things that I don't know how to feel about. Just in general. And sometimes I wonder how I'm supposed to feel about these things and perhaps it isn't worth all this thinking.
3. I did a really good job shaving my legs last night and I need to make sure I do the same kind of wonderful shaving work tomorrow night. Also got to experience two different kinds of stick-on/strapless bras over the last few days. For someone as flat-chested as I am, living in Asia is perfect for boob-related technology.
4. I went to Shinjuku with almost no makeup on today and that's one of those things I said I'd never do. I looked like hell in the train window's reflection on my way in this morning.
5. I hate the phrase "You look better without makeup" so so so much. And girls who brag about never wearing makeup can suck it too. You probably don't look as good as you think and look a hundred times better when you put effort into your appearance. A little mascara and foundation go a long way.
6. I don't believe in inner beauty versus outer beauty. I believe in taking charge in the way you look and creating a you that properly reflects the inside. Or creating an image on the outside of what you want to become on the inside. In other words, I believe in the unity of inside and out.
7. Am I shallow? Perhaps. But maybe not as much as you think.
2. There are things that I don't know how to feel about. Just in general. And sometimes I wonder how I'm supposed to feel about these things and perhaps it isn't worth all this thinking.
3. I did a really good job shaving my legs last night and I need to make sure I do the same kind of wonderful shaving work tomorrow night. Also got to experience two different kinds of stick-on/strapless bras over the last few days. For someone as flat-chested as I am, living in Asia is perfect for boob-related technology.
4. I went to Shinjuku with almost no makeup on today and that's one of those things I said I'd never do. I looked like hell in the train window's reflection on my way in this morning.
5. I hate the phrase "You look better without makeup" so so so much. And girls who brag about never wearing makeup can suck it too. You probably don't look as good as you think and look a hundred times better when you put effort into your appearance. A little mascara and foundation go a long way.
6. I don't believe in inner beauty versus outer beauty. I believe in taking charge in the way you look and creating a you that properly reflects the inside. Or creating an image on the outside of what you want to become on the inside. In other words, I believe in the unity of inside and out.
7. Am I shallow? Perhaps. But maybe not as much as you think.
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
13.07.17
1. I got my first real taste of Japanese overtime work yesterday and it was awful and today I still feel emotionally and physically drained. I need to find a way of becoming stronger in every sense of the word if I expect to survive in the long run.
2. Last week, half-jokingly, I said I would volunteer to do my presentation early if I got to do it in English. Everyone said that I should do it, and after talking to the teacher, he said it was fine, even if him and I are the only ones who understand. But part of me feels sort of self-conscious and regretful of having made this suggestion. Not only will no one understand, but part of me feels like I'm building up walls between me and my classmates once again. It's hard to explain, but I'm strangely worried about the whole ideal.
3. There's no use in hiding it. I'm just gonna go out and say it. I want a boyfriend and that's that. Having friends is great and all, and I'm grateful for all the friendships I have, but I really need someone to be there for me right now, if for no other reason, then to distract me from myself. Friends have their own lives, their own problems, and can't be with me all the time.
In other words, I want a boyfriend because of selfish, personal reasons and I accept this. That, and to kill bugs for me.
4. For whatever reason, I wanted to see you, and your not having money and your lack of responding to my messages is upsetting. But I'm so tired right now that I don't have the energy to go after you. And part of me wonders whether, if I continue to pursue you, it'll be because I genuinely like you, or just because I really don't want to lose. I'm extremely hard-headed and persistent when it comes to shit like this.
Monday, July 8, 2013
13.07.08
1. Maybe it isn't right to get excited over small things. But I often do.
2. I have fallen in love with a pretzel and it's all thanks to Akane. No, but seriously, it's perfect.
3. I bought shoes for the first time in years and they're pretty fantastic. Gotta figure out how to climb down stairs without dying though.
4. Every year I tend to forget just how hot Tokyo gets in the summer. The air is nice right now, but I still feel extremely hot in my little apartment. The computer on my lap doesn't help, of course.
5. Midterm exams start tomorrow. Baaah.
6. Man, bitch, wipe that smile off your face when you say such things. But, no, seriously, who do you think you are? Do you think it's cute or something? Or are you actually just clueless?
7. Tsutaya cards and 5 CDs for 1000Y have brought so much joy into my musical life over the last month. Hooray.
8. Out of sight out of mind. Maybe. Or maybe just put on the backburner. Always on the backburner.
2. I have fallen in love with a pretzel and it's all thanks to Akane. No, but seriously, it's perfect.
3. I bought shoes for the first time in years and they're pretty fantastic. Gotta figure out how to climb down stairs without dying though.
4. Every year I tend to forget just how hot Tokyo gets in the summer. The air is nice right now, but I still feel extremely hot in my little apartment. The computer on my lap doesn't help, of course.
5. Midterm exams start tomorrow. Baaah.
6. Man, bitch, wipe that smile off your face when you say such things. But, no, seriously, who do you think you are? Do you think it's cute or something? Or are you actually just clueless?
7. Tsutaya cards and 5 CDs for 1000Y have brought so much joy into my musical life over the last month. Hooray.
8. Out of sight out of mind. Maybe. Or maybe just put on the backburner. Always on the backburner.
Friday, July 5, 2013
13.07.05
1. I want to find someone with whom I can share every single part of my life. I want to show them every little silly thing that I find important and significant and stimulating and wonderful. And it's okay if that person doesn't feel the same way about these things. But simply take a look and take the time to understand the small things that go on in my brain that make me who I am. The good and the bad. And to not be judged for any of it.
2.
"I think I should flirt with B more often..."
"But didn't you say you were sorta seeing someone...?"
"Yeah, but she's 36..."
"???.... Just because she's 36 doesn't mean she doesn't have feelings!"
3. I think I realized today why I do so much better with guys than I do with girls but I'm not quite sure how to put it into words properly without giving off the wrong impression about myself.
4. For someone who was giving me shit today for being a girl that seems to like the wrong guys, you really weren't trying very hard to sell yourself off as a good guy.
5. Reading and rereading old CLAMP manga was honestly one of the best decisions I've made in the last few months.
6. My goal for this school year is for you and I to become friends and if I can achieve that I'll be extremely happy. Today I felt that maybe you feel the same way about me.
7. The world is an extremely small and mysterious place.
2.
"I think I should flirt with B more often..."
"But didn't you say you were sorta seeing someone...?"
"Yeah, but she's 36..."
"???.... Just because she's 36 doesn't mean she doesn't have feelings!"
3. I think I realized today why I do so much better with guys than I do with girls but I'm not quite sure how to put it into words properly without giving off the wrong impression about myself.
4. For someone who was giving me shit today for being a girl that seems to like the wrong guys, you really weren't trying very hard to sell yourself off as a good guy.
5. Reading and rereading old CLAMP manga was honestly one of the best decisions I've made in the last few months.
6. My goal for this school year is for you and I to become friends and if I can achieve that I'll be extremely happy. Today I felt that maybe you feel the same way about me.
7. The world is an extremely small and mysterious place.
Thursday, July 4, 2013
13.07.04
1. Sometimes, even if you do your best, there are just some things that are out of your control. But maybe something good will come of this.
2. I will never know what it's like to be you. And you will never know what it's like to be me. And maybe we all just have to accept this and get over ourselves if we ever want to move forward.
3. Doing math word problems involving high sums of money in Japanese is just... I don't even know... Please don't kill me, Marketing Exam T_T
4. I picked up all four volumes of CLOVER the other day, and I love it. The art is just amazing. I feel like I waited till just the perfect time to finally decide to read it too.
2. I will never know what it's like to be you. And you will never know what it's like to be me. And maybe we all just have to accept this and get over ourselves if we ever want to move forward.
3. Doing math word problems involving high sums of money in Japanese is just... I don't even know... Please don't kill me, Marketing Exam T_T
4. I picked up all four volumes of CLOVER the other day, and I love it. The art is just amazing. I feel like I waited till just the perfect time to finally decide to read it too.
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
13.07.02
1. I waited for you and waited and waited and you never came. You took a step forward and it meant the world to me. But you're still so far away. And maybe you always will be.
2. You noticed I wasn't doing well and you didn't stop at 'no' when I said nothing was wrong. I had been waiting for that for so long... For once, I didn't feel like I was just burdening someone with my own selfish thoughts and mindless stories. You asked because you were concerned and because you wanted to know. Now if only you had chosen me and not her. But maybe things are better this way.
3. People who are unilingual have no right to criticize people's second language skills.
4. I just feel so tired and drained and I'm having trouble putting up a facade. I want to yell at everyone to get out of my way. I skipped adulthood completely and have become a bitter old lady.
5. I really really hate it when my classmates use keigo with everyone older than them, except with me. Especially because I'm usually the oldest one in class. Don't decide on your own that just because I'm gaijin you don't have to use it. And in my current mood I was about to bitch out the kid who sits in front of me today because of that.
2. You noticed I wasn't doing well and you didn't stop at 'no' when I said nothing was wrong. I had been waiting for that for so long... For once, I didn't feel like I was just burdening someone with my own selfish thoughts and mindless stories. You asked because you were concerned and because you wanted to know. Now if only you had chosen me and not her. But maybe things are better this way.
3. People who are unilingual have no right to criticize people's second language skills.
4. I just feel so tired and drained and I'm having trouble putting up a facade. I want to yell at everyone to get out of my way. I skipped adulthood completely and have become a bitter old lady.
5. I really really hate it when my classmates use keigo with everyone older than them, except with me. Especially because I'm usually the oldest one in class. Don't decide on your own that just because I'm gaijin you don't have to use it. And in my current mood I was about to bitch out the kid who sits in front of me today because of that.
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