1. I have so much to look forward to over the next week and a half that I'm so worried that things will get wrong. So I feel slightly ill and nervous and I wish I knew how to just calm down and be a normal person from time to time.
2. And I could have really done without one of my students apparently getting over some long-ass bout of food poisoning/stomach flu/who-knows-what that they caught abroad. Paranoia mode overload. I can't get sick now.
3. あなたのこと好きになったかも。
4. 年下の男と付き合った事ない理由は何かというと毎回振られちゃうから。でも特に６コ下の男に振られたくないな。
Friday, May 17, 2013
Thursday, May 16, 2013
13.05.16.2
There's something about rain that, when in the right mood, I absolutely love. I sit in my apartment and wish that there was someone here with me to listen to the sounds. It is dark and you hold me and we lie in bed and do nothing all day.
Or maybe we run around outside like children. Wearing rainboots and raincoats and holding umbrellas too small to keep us dry.
The air is perfect outside. It's cool but isn't cold. It's warm but isn't hot. I smile and you smile back.
Or maybe we run around outside like children. Wearing rainboots and raincoats and holding umbrellas too small to keep us dry.
The air is perfect outside. It's cool but isn't cold. It's warm but isn't hot. I smile and you smile back.
13.05.16
1. Almost every night, just as it's time for me to go to bed, I start feeling unwell and I don't want to lie down and I just feel stressed and the last thing I want to do is try to sleep. And then mornings are hard to wake up.
2. Hopefully it's stress. Lots of things coming up over the next week and a half. Excited and nervous.
3. あなたからの連絡が来た瞬間、すごくほっとした。ありがとう。
4.好きな人が居なくても、面白くて気になる男が最近多くなった。
2. Hopefully it's stress. Lots of things coming up over the next week and a half. Excited and nervous.
3. あなたからの連絡が来た瞬間、すごくほっとした。ありがとう。
4.好きな人が居なくても、面白くて気になる男が最近多くなった。
Friday, May 10, 2013
13.05.10
1. I'm not too sure why you seem to be avoiding me. What did I do to upset you? And how can I make it okay? I'd like to talk.
2. Or maybe you're just busy and I'm just paranoid but still.
3. I've spent so little time sleeping this week and I feel like I got nothing done.
4. Bashing your head when you haven't slept all week and you've had a headache all week and you're already always in hypercondriac means absolutely making a visit to the hospital.... But at least everything turned out normal.
5. I turned on my A/C for the first time in my new apartment and it made the most particular scent/odor. I feel the need to use both adjectives as it was both minty and somewhat disgusting. I don't even know how to start explaining it haha.
6. Visitors coming soon! So excited! :D
2. Or maybe you're just busy and I'm just paranoid but still.
3. I've spent so little time sleeping this week and I feel like I got nothing done.
4. Bashing your head when you haven't slept all week and you've had a headache all week and you're already always in hypercondriac means absolutely making a visit to the hospital.... But at least everything turned out normal.
5. I turned on my A/C for the first time in my new apartment and it made the most particular scent/odor. I feel the need to use both adjectives as it was both minty and somewhat disgusting. I don't even know how to start explaining it haha.
6. Visitors coming soon! So excited! :D
Friday, May 3, 2013
13.05.03
1.昨日話してくれてありがとう。実はね、去年からずっと気になってたよ。でもクラスメイトになったら、ずっと私に冷たくて、無視して、凄く嫌な人だと思った。でも昨日は初めて私に優しくして、嬉しかった。これからもよろしくね。
2. 好きだから嫌い。嫌いだから好き。そういうパターンが多いなと。
3. やることが多すぎると、逃げる。今でも逃げている。
4. I am convinced that we are programmed to go after the same people over and over again. Maybe because they remind us of someone we once loved. Or maybe because we want to fix what we couldn't the previous time. Maybe because we want to be accepted by that original lost love. Or maybe I just think too much.
5. Friends coming to visit in a few weeks. Super excited. Yay!!
6. あなたに会いたくないときもあるよ。私もびっくりした。
7. Even though I don't smoke, I prefer to sit with smokers when I go out to an izakaya. They're always more interesting to talk with.
8. But I'd really rather not see little 18~19 year old girls smoking because they think it looks cool. I prefer the long-time authentic smokers.
9. I find it interesting how the East and the West treat the idea of smoking and drinking very differently. In the west both are seen quite negatively, whereas in the east, they're almost expected of you.
10. I love being an observer. Maybe that's why I dislike big groups usually. Because I can't look in from the outside. So I get quiet, distance myself, and find a way to watch people anyways. Though when I write it all down it just makes me sound creepy.
2. 好きだから嫌い。嫌いだから好き。そういうパターンが多いなと。
3. やることが多すぎると、逃げる。今でも逃げている。
4. I am convinced that we are programmed to go after the same people over and over again. Maybe because they remind us of someone we once loved. Or maybe because we want to fix what we couldn't the previous time. Maybe because we want to be accepted by that original lost love. Or maybe I just think too much.
5. Friends coming to visit in a few weeks. Super excited. Yay!!
6. あなたに会いたくないときもあるよ。私もびっくりした。
7. Even though I don't smoke, I prefer to sit with smokers when I go out to an izakaya. They're always more interesting to talk with.
8. But I'd really rather not see little 18~19 year old girls smoking because they think it looks cool. I prefer the long-time authentic smokers.
9. I find it interesting how the East and the West treat the idea of smoking and drinking very differently. In the west both are seen quite negatively, whereas in the east, they're almost expected of you.
10. I love being an observer. Maybe that's why I dislike big groups usually. Because I can't look in from the outside. So I get quiet, distance myself, and find a way to watch people anyways. Though when I write it all down it just makes me sound creepy.
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