1. Reading CLAMP manga really just makes me wanna sit in a library and do research and write about everything that is fucked up forever. Which makes me question my current studying decisions and wonder if this is really what I want.
2. But I never really know what I want. I'm the kind of person who will change her mind ever other week as to what my life calling is. And that's fine I guess when you're a kid, but at 25 years old how am I supposed to deal with this and where do I go from now?
3. But don't get me wrong. I have no plan of quitting Bunka and doing research. It just makes me wonder though if I'll ever be passionate enough about one thing to really become good at it and want to work hard at achieving my goals.
4. I guess we could say that I don't know what I want my end goal to be and that's especially frustrating.
5. Part of the reason for this is because as a child my dream was to learn Japanese and live in Japan. And although there is still a lot of improvement that needs to be done on the language part, I've more or less realized this dream. And realizing your dream at a young age means you have to assemble a new dream. And I really don't know where to go from here.
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